making Christmas bright...the reason I want to Sparkle



Alone.
Cold.
Misunderstood.
Doubting.
Aching to be more, but with no means to be.
Hurting in a sea of total blankness.

These are all emotions that I've felt in my life.  Emotions that made me dull and boring and took away my spark for life.

As a child I was quite weird unique.  I was a child who wanted to live in an adult world and who fought to be an adult.

Yes, that was me.  The girl who wore only dresses because she really wanted to.  The girl who, at the age of 12, was mistaken for a manager at Wal-Mart (true story).  The girl who used the playground to advance my political agenda.  I was that girl.

And sometimes I still am.  I still care too much.  I still believe to passionately.  I'll still tell the cashiers how to run their machines (and for the record, I'm usually correct).  And I still sometimes feel like a person surrounded with humanity--with people who love me--but with no one who understands me.

And sometimes that's a lonely place.

But it's in this place of social silence, of secret solitude, that I'm reminded of one certain truth.  During my darkest times, this truth has become the rockbed of my foundation...the one truth to grab ahold of and refuse to let go.  It's in the Season, the season of celebration for Christ's de-scension from Heaven, that I'm reminded most.

God became flesh and came to dwell among us.  To live among us.  To die among us.  To rise among.  To be Immanuel, God with us. (John 1:14)

When I remember this truth, my self-doubt leaves.
My loneliness goes.
I feel warmth again.
I discover that emotions--hurt and joy--are gifts from God and a reflection of His personality.
My self-worth finds a home in God's opinion only.

It's for this reason that I can Sparkle.


I strongly sense that maybe this is all we really want...connection to something.  To know that we aren't alone...to know that somebody understands us.  And so we reach out into this community of  the social media world looking, hoping, wanting to not be alone.  But when you close the computer or shut off the phone or turn off the television or leave the restaurant that dreaded loneliness returns with a vengeance taking hold of our emotions.

But here is the truth of the Season: Jesus, God, Lord, Savior, lover...is Immanuel, God with you.

I challenge you in the busyness of the holidays, find Jesus.  Find God with you.  No longer alone, but surrounded with His manifest presence.  Be a reflection of His love and His light.

Sparkle.


15 comments

  1. Such a lovely post. I feel like I've lost my sparkle and I'm working to get it back.

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    1. Don't give up though. Never give up. You'll find it again.

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  2. I have to agree, such a lovely post. Everyone has to have a bit of sparkle in their lives!

    Which has given me a thought for my next post this afternoon :)

    Popping by via the "Not quite there link up" I am now following you and have liked your FB page :)

    Nikki
    (newbie blogger)
    Blog URL: http://12milestothenearestsupermarket.blogspot.co.uk/
    Twitter: @12mttns

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    1. Thanks for stopping by!

      I'm looking forward to reading about your sparkle. :)

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  3. Sparkle, that is a great way of expressing it.
    I will probably steal the term this weekend as I go on a ten retreat. Thanks for sharing it.

    Http://Www.seetastelove.WordPress.com

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    1. Have fun at your retreat and sparkle away!

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  4. I remember in elementary school the teachers at parent-teacher interview would always say that I was a "unique" child. Every single year.

    Great post. I feel the same way quite frequently.

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  5. I know how you feel! This is beautiful; simply beautiful. And I get that way too. I have people who love me despite the way i act,think, and talk but that doesn't mean they always get the way i think,act, and talk. And sometimes that is frustrating and lonesome because i feel like i run a different radio wavelength then other people and that they just don't get me sometimes. But it is comforting when you remember that the one who created you and knows every thought,action, and intention, does get you and loves you, ir's so comforting. :)

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    1. Completely comforting. There's no pretending or hiding. Only honesty. Honesty is such a safe place and it's so overlooked.

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  6. I've felt this way before too and i love "sparkle". So sweet!

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